Sad news

Today I found out one of my friends lost her baby at about 12 weeks. This is a very sad time for her and her family. Please keep them in your prayers. I found out CareNet pregnancy center gives free ultrasounds for people who don't have insurance. I made an appointment for next Tuesday. Be praying that we see little Sprout's heart beat and if not that I'll be okay.

8 Weeks

Well we are at 8 weeks already. Time has really gone by. It seems like from day to day it goes slow but then I look back and 2 weeks have past. I think it helps to just focus on today and not worry about tomorrow and look to the future too much. Though it still seems like forever till I'll have any baby bump pictures to post... At least I have all the holiday's to look forward too and DH's graduation. That will help the time to go by faster. Jan 2nd is the big date for my first appt. The one where we really confirm this baby thing. I don't think I will ever think this is real until I get to hear a heart beat or see a baby. I know that's so bad because I have faith that Jesus is real and that God is there without seeing it. I don't know why it's so hard to believe in this. Maybe if I were puking my guts out (which I'm glad I'm not) I might think differently? Who knows. I just know I'm still scared to tell the rest of my family until I see something. Even now so many more people know than I would have originally liked but oh well. As is life. I know if we don't get to keep this one I'm definitely not tell ANYONE till the second Tri. I am thankful I'm not bleeding or really having any cramps to really freak me out since there's nothing I can do; I have any Dr. to go to. I am thankful. God just help me get through these next 3 weeks and let my insurance card get here so I can go to my appt on the 2nd.

Slacker

I know...I'm a terrible slacker. I haven't updated my blog in a week! Anyhow...things are still moving right along as far as I know. I made my first appt. for the OB last week...it's not till Jan 2nd cause of insurance. Being the neurotic mommy to be that I am I made a "backup" appt. with another group just in case my insurance card doesn't come in the mail in time. I'm praying it does but you never know how these things go. But it's a relief cause I would hate to have to cancel my appt and have to wait weeks for another appt. I just wish the "family practice" I go to really was one and did OB too...you just can't find a personal Dr.'s office like them. Oh well. It's just till the baby's here then he/she will be going to the nice competent office :) Can you see the pregnancy rage coming through?...

As far as symptoms go, I was more sick over the weekend but still managed to decorate the house and put the tree up. I'm better today...feel almost like normal. It's so weird how it changes from day to day! I have officially decided to stop temping because I was getting freaked out over my temps dropping when there isn't a need to. It just gives me another thing to worry about and put doubt in my mind if I really am pregnant. I figure it has now been almost 2 months since my period so something must be up right? It's silly I know, but having never gone through this before I want to second guess myself. I can see myself going to the OB in Jan and they say...nope there's no baby in there...what were you thinking? I know...I can't let those ugly little thoughts into my head...I think I read that irrational thoughts were part of this pregnancy thing? God just keeps saying, "Trust me, trust me." Why is trusting so dang hard? Thank goodness for an understanding God and a great supportive husband who always reassures me that everything will be okay. I still try not to think what it will be like to have a baby (for fear of getting to excited) and just focus on things in this week/month of pregnancy.

Our NOT TTC story

Well since Ben and I ever discussed the possibility of marriage we knew we wanted to have kids. I always said I'd like at least 3 (coming from a small family of 2) and he wanted no more than 2 (coming from a family of 5). I figured we'd decide when we got there. We had also planned to not start having kids until Ben was done with school. So as most couple's do we figured I'd get on the pill and we'd be fine. We always knew there was a chance of getting pregnant on it and we figured it that was God's plan then fine. Lucky for me I did not get really sick on it like alot of people and could tolerate the extra moodiness, breakouts, and low sex drive in order to not get pregnant.

WELL....Obviously God had other plans and I am SO thankful for that.

It all started in October 2008 when I felt like the Holy Spirit was asking me about the areas of my life that I don't trust fully to God. I felt like He distinctly said, "You want to trust me in all areas of your life, why not your fertility and having kids?"

I was like "whoa...I'd never thought of it that way" Thus began my spiritual journey to discover what God said about having kids, the purpose od kids, and also preventing it. I also learned some startling things about the birth control pill from Randy Alcorn that I was not comfortable with at all.

I knew with all this information I found and the things God was teaching me I needed to talk to Ben about it. To tell you the truth I was SCARED TO DEATH to tell him. So I prayed, gathered my well organized notes and was prepared for the battle that lay ahead.

He didn't take it well at first. He thought it was a ploy for me to try and get pregnant...which it of course was not.

I told him what God had taught me about trusting Him in every area of my life including this. And also that I believed God wouldn't give us something we couldn't handle.

I asked Ben to join with me in prayer for a week about it and then we would decide.

I know God did a great work in his heart because after just a few days and some more conversations he agreed to let me stop taking the birth control pill and use the Fertility Awareness method.

This method is a combo of taking your temperature, cervical position, and cervical mucous. It's used especially for people TTC. But others use it to prevent as well. And even though we were trying to trust, not prevent, we felt it was okay to know when my cycles were and obstain or use protection during that time.

So I bought myself a basal thermometor and off we went.

It takes time getting used to all this temping and such, but the nice thing is you know exactly when you ovulate based on a temperature shift. I figured that coming off the pill I might not ovulate for a few months...

Well, my regular cycles before the pill went right back after the pill. I ovulated the first month off the pill. I couldn't believe it! Then I started freaking out...We had a little slip up a few days before that and if sperm stay alive up to 5 days...uh oh...I could get pregnant!

So a week went by and I eventually calmed down but never forgot about it.

I left with Ben's mom to a conference in Dallas fully prepared to get my period while I was there. I had light cramps but nothing came. The first day of the conference I got really dizzy and had to sit down but nothing more than that. I decided to tell my MIL that I hadn't gotten my period yet and also about our decision to stop the pill and all that God was teaching me.

At first I was scared because I wasn't sure if she would support it or think we were crazy since Ben was about to start grad school. She took it well and I completely supportive. She said she had a feeling about it and thought I might be pregnant! I told Ben about it and he said, "Oh you're not...you always skipped your period while on the pill..." I tried to explain to him that you HAVE to start your period after you ovulate but he didn't get it. He did tell me he wanted to be the first one to know if I was pregnant so that meant waiting till I got home to take a test.

So I decided to take the test when I got home which also happened to be my 24th birthday. Ben even went to the store and bought the test for me. It was positive...it took awhile to sink in but we were both so happy and our families were too.

So it's just so amazing to think how God had it all planned out. I am getting closer to my lifelong dream of being a mom and it is happening even sooner than I was expecting!

Thankgiving and Such

Well we just got back yesterday from Thanksgiving at DH's uncle's house in Montana. A 15 HOUR DRIVE!! I felt pretty good up until the day after Thanksgiving. Yay for eating lots on Thanksgiving though. Friday I woke up pretty nauseous and exhausted. It was great though cause I laid about on the couch all day and knitted and slept. i was able to stand long enough to try my hand at shooting a pistol for the very first time...This is Montana remember? But after that I was ready for another nap. The ride home was LONG. We did it in two days rather than one like originally planned...thank goodness. I find I am so uncomfortable right now sitting for long periods of time and sleeping that it was torture. And the common Pregnancy Constipation is starting now too and that's no fun at all.

We did tell DH's family and it was so much fun. Everyone went around the table saying what they are thankful for and Dh's brother came right before us. He didn't know that everyone didn't know so he said, "I'm thankful that I'm going to be an uncle". It was the cutest thing...and a great lead in to our thanks...Everyone was so excited. Especially Dh's OMI. We told her that she was going to be a great-grandma for the 2nd time but she didn't quite get it so I said..."We're pregnant, we're going to have a baby!" Then she got it and was so happy. everyone started teasing my MIL and calling her "Grannie" and it was great! She's really excited too.

The last group of people to tell are my extended family. Since we weren't with them on Thanksgiving I wanted to wait and tell them in person at our get together on the 21st. I'm excited for that. I will be 9 weeks by then! That's just crazy!

Oh and I have one of my bridesmaids and her husband and DS coming over for dinner tonight (they live out of town) so I can't wait to tell them!

The time has come

The time has come to announce that we're pregnant! I'm about 5 1/2 weeks. I am very excited yet apprehensive but learning to trust God in all things. I found out on my birthday (Nov. 16th). It was a shock but really exciting too. I guess it's just hard for me to believe because I've hardly had any symptoms at all but there are no false positive pregnancy tests when you wait 18 DPO to test like I did. I defininetly am thanksful I'm not puking every two seconds though I do have my days of queasiness.

I am very happy and thankful for this blessing and just pray that God gets me through the next 5 weeks till I can see a midwife. DH's insurance isn't effective till Jan 1st so I have to wait till then. Thank goodnesss they don't consider pregnancy a pre-existing condition. I acutally found out that there is a HIPPA law that says insurance companies can't yet somehow some still do.

So God's taugh DH and I about trust this last month I guess cause he was preparing us for this...parenthood.

Trusting God brings Peace

It is that time of year again…the Holiday’s when it seems you never have enough time in the day when your list of things to do seems never ending. As with any situation those around us who know we are Christians want to know how we will respond to the stress of the Holiday’s. Will be stressed out and frazzled or will we be calm and bring peace to others? I think the key to peace this Holiday Season and all the time is to trust God.
What does it mean exactly to “trust” God? Trusting God involves giving our fears, our worries, and our plans for our lives over to Him, the Author of Life. I believe that God allows situations to come into our lives to teach us to trust Him. It is so easy to become wrapped up in our own world and problems that when a trial comes we immediately try to fix it ourselves rather than giving it to God and allowing Him to take care of it. He says to “not worry about tomorrow…it will not add a single hour to our lives.” (Matthew 6:27 & 34 paraphrase).
Rather than make a plan and then tell God about it. Go to Him first and put your trust in His Perfect Plan for your life. “For He knows the plans He has for us, plans to prosper and not to harm, plans to give us a hope and future.” (Jeremiah 29:11 paraphrase) We have to come to a place that even when bad things happen we know that God is still good and that His plans for our lives are truly better than what we could think up for ourselves. If we trust God and rest in the knowledge that His plans are best then we wouldn’t be so worried and stressed out most of the time; we would have a “peace that passes all understanding”. As we celebrate Christ’s Birth this Christmas Season let’s bring peace to those around us by trusting in the One who knows us and loves us more than anything in the world. Let it be an opportunity for those around you to ask about the peace you have amongst the hustle and bustle and stress that often comes this time of year.

My favorite verses about trust-Psalm 9:10, Psalm 25:10, Psalm 37:5, Psalm 56:4,
Proverbs 3:5, Isaiah 12:2, Romans 15:13, and peace- John 14:27, Romans 5:1, Romans 15:13,
1 Corinthians 14:33, Philippians 4:7, Colossians 3:15.

Save the TaTa's

Got this in an e-mail...that it was the cutest thing ever!! I heard today on the radio that a study had found a correlation between migraines and a lesser chance of getting breast cancer. I don't want either...

I will Trust...

This is a wonderful video and song written by Kellie (Generation Cedar Blog)
That is all I can say today. I will trust, I will obey. I will not be like the democrats in the 2000 and 2004 elections and bash the president. As a Christian I am called to respect those God has placed in authority over me and obey them unless what they ask me to do goes against Scripture.

Go VOTE!!

Everyone needs to go vote if you haven't already!! I did and it felt great! I always get so excited to vote. I had to double check to make sure I didn't vote for Obama on accident. LOL. It's in God's hands now. MSNBC cracks me up, they said that Obama is like 10 points ahead, but the Rasmussen pole has it within margin or error - 2 points. It's anyones game. May God's will be done, I will be in prayer all day.

Obama's dirty tricks

Found these two videos...See his disrespect for Hillary and McCain...just watch the videos and see if you see what I see.

Spread it Around

So Obama told Joe the Plumber and he's telling American that his plan is to "Spread the Wealth Around". A lady in Albuquerque decided to try out Obama's plan. She went to dinner and on her way in to the restaurant she saw a homeless man and he had sign saying he needs help and anything you can give would help. So the lady went into the restaurant and sat down and ordered her food and the waitress came up and she had on an Obama t-shirt .The lady felt kind of annoyed that the waitress would be wearing a political t-shirt. So when she was ready to pay the bill and give the waitress her tip she told the waitress since she was an Obama supporter that she would take her tip and give it to the homeless guy that was outside the restaurant. The waitress got pissed off and the lady explained to her what spreading the wealth meant and walked outside and showed the waitress that she did give her tip to the homeless guy.

Now I'm not saying that homeless people don't deserve to be helped, but it is the job of the church to clothe the naked and feed the hungry, not the government. We need less government in America not more.

Choose Life

I found this video today and it is very powerful. It says everything I would want to. I can't even comprehend why Christians would want to vote for Obama just based ont his one issue...He said if one of his daughters made a mistake he wouldn't want them punished with a baby. That shows right there he doesn't think people should be responsible for their own actions!! Just watch the video.

Your Vote Counts!!

With less than a week till America decides the next President, I am fearful. Fearful that American's are uninformed about the candidates and will cast their vote based purely on what the media has told them. Fearful of what will happen to our great nation if Obama becomes President

Yes, I am voting McCain/Palin. He is the only choice for America because otherwise we get Obama, and that would mean the end of Democracy and our America the Beautiful as we know it today. Obama might have the eloquence and charisma but McCain has the history and love for America. McCain has been serving this country since he was 17 and will continue to till the day he dies; there is no question about it. I question whether Obama has ever loved our country.

The question everyone needs to ask themselves before they vote is who do they trust? How could you even think of voting for someone who has been friends with a terrorist? McCain has earned the privilege of being our commander and chief because he's proven he wants to do what's best for Americans. He almost died for our country.

People need to stop relying on the media to inform them about the candidates and do the research for themselves. How can people not see the media is biased towards Obama, it sickens me! I agree with Sean Hannity that 2008 was the year journalism died.

Even aside from the Character of the candidates, there is the issue of their policies. McCain wants to maintain the Bush tax cuts which help create jobs and cut Federal spending. Obama wants to increase Federal spending and says he won't raise taxes, but how does he think he will pay for all these new government programs like healthcare and such? By taxing US!! Now he has said that he won't tax you if you're not wealthy. But he's changed his definition of wealthy from 300k to 250k to 200k and today Biden said it was 150k, So what will keep him from changing his mind to making it 50k and taxing YOU? He wants to take from the rich and give to the poor. It didn't work for Robin Hood, it didn't work for the other Socialist/Communist nations and it's not going to work for us!!

To see what our country will look like in 4 years with Obama as President read this "Letter from 2012 in Obama’s America,"

This race is NOT over, McCain is only down by 3 points in the Gallup poll.

If you want to keep your freedom, keep your money in YOUR pocket then
Vote for McCain on Nov. 4th!!!

A New Thing

So for a few years now I've been reading random people's blogs. I love knowing what's going on in people's lives. I read this one blog that I still read now about a lady and her husband who struggled with infertility and now they have a 5 month old baby girl. So I decided instead of just reading other people's blogs to go ahead and start my own.