10 Weeks

So fun we got to announce our pregnancy on the interwebs this week. I decided I wanted to to before my 10 week appointment because if it didn't go well I didn't want to feel how I did last time like I wanted to post about my loss but couldn't because no one knew. I'm really glad I did. Everyone was so kind and supportive. I got texts and messages with people congratulating and offering their baby things. It was wonderful.

I had a good 10 weeks appointment today I'm happy to report :) I'm going to  a new hospital and OB office than all my previous births because things have changed in the last 10 years and this hospital is the best for having a midwife. Actually the other hospital doesn't allow midwives at all anymore which is such a shame. God completely worked it out because I didn't have the right insurance to the hospital I wanted but because of COVID I was able to switch to the insurance my work offers which is for the hospital I wanted. Thank you Lord!! So that is one blessing for me personally from COVID.

I had to see an OB for my first appointment because I'm 35 (insert eye roll here)...which I found out really doesn't mean anything for me cause I'm healthy thankfully. He was great though and did a quick ultrasound to check on baby to ease my fears. It was a huge blessing. And he said I can switch to a midwife if I'd like. I'm really excited about the midwife I'm going to see next time. She's a naturopath too!! 

So I'm over the moon excited today with the good report. I celebrated by buying some maternity shorts and a bella band cause nothing fits anymore.

Symptoms: HUNGRY, nausea isn't constant anymore thank goodness, TIRED. I want to go to bed at like 8pm

Movement: None yet. Hoping I will feel the baby soon!

Cravings: Fresh fruit and veggies. Everything bagels with cream cheese and smoked salmon and tomato and cucumber....it's all very specific. It's like if that sounds good I better eat it cause nothing else does.

Exercise: Barre3 and walks!

I will post a bump date comparison soon too. 

Next appt is September 18th

9 Weeks

I will be 10 weeks on Thursday and this week I've been thinking more about how I lost baby Peanut around this time. They said the baby only measured 8.5 weeks and I started spotting at 10.5 weeks. I also have my first appointment on Thursday. I'm praying for some type of reassurance that everything is going ok. I opted to not go to CareNet for an ultrasound last week. I know they do free ones starting at 9 weeks but I really felt like it would make me more nervous than be comforting because then what? Would I feel I couldn't be content unless I have an ultrasound? I'm still feeling sick, still hungry, belly still growing as far as I can tell so at this point I just have to trust God and rest in His peace. He has been so faithful to give me that peace that surpasses all understanding and I will continue holding on to Him.  I also think it's comforting for me to just rest in Him. I literally have not control over what happens to this baby. I know before that would have caused anxiety and it may in the future, but it's really freeing for me. I can pray hard and trust God. 

One fun thing this week is we got our Sneak Peek DNA test back and it says we are having a boy. I was dissapointed for a bit and then I was just excited. Same thing happened with Eli. We've had to figure out a boy name though cause we didn't have any boy names. We had a girl name picked though. We know the boys name needs to have an "L" in it but not start with "L". I searched on Baby Center and that gave me 32,000 names to look through lol. We do have a couple top contenders but no solid decision. Ben and I don't agree on things too easily cause we are both so stubborn so when we find one we both like it usually sticks lol. 
Cravings: fruit and fresh stuff, pretty much anything that sounds appetizing at the moment I just eat it. Cause alot of stuff doesn't sound good but it changes everyday.